My 8th grade formal dress.
Life is actually a very simple thing: you wake up, and try your best at what you love with people you love.
Why do we make it so complicated?
I want happiness when I’m older. I don’t care it that means I live in a shack with my husband, I just wanna wake up every day to love and do what I love.
When will I shine? When will it be my moment?
I feel like I’m always in the background, overshadowed because I’m not pretty enough or smart enough, or doing something great.
Can someone just appreciate me for being me?
Can someone please look past my weight and tough girl attitude and see me?
A child of divorce, abuse, addiction, sexual assault, loneliness. A child of lost faith and pessimism.
Am I really as lost as I think I am?
All I can think is that if I lose this weight things will get better. So many people tell me I’m wrong, that being skinny doesn’t solve your problems.
Well it may not solve my problems, but it’ll stop complicating them. Atleast when I’m skinny and single I’ll know it’s because I’m a horrible person with no personality and not just cause I’m fat. Or that my parents aren’t just ashamed of me cause I’m fat, they really just don’t wanna tell people about me.
God, I don’t even know where I’m going with this.
Oh my god do not see haywire
Worst movie I have ever seen. Looks like something a film student fresh outta college made. Oh my god
Update on my progress!
I began this journey to change my life on August 30th 2011, this is my progress up to this point, January 24th 2012.
Never in my dreams did I think I would be able to get this far, never did I think I would be able to do all the things I can do now. I never thought being healthy was so much FUN! Now I can say that I am living my life to the fullest of my potential, because I’m doing things I never thought possible. Over this time I’ve created so many new good habits, that my old way honestly make me cringe.
I was at the point where my health was deteriorating at a rapid rate, and I was, well, miserable. I was ashamed of my body, I was ashamed of myself. I didn’t go out with my friends, I always covered up with long, layered clothing- even in the Summer. I was so unhappy with my life that I needed to change, or I would have been in serious trouble with my health. But now? I’M ON TOP OF THE WORLD! I have so much energy, I’m filled with passion, and I live to be healthy. I love exercise, and I love healthy food. I’ve never felt so amazing, I’ve never felt as fulfilled as I do right now at this point in my life. Surely I’ve added years on to my life, because this is forever. This is my new lifestyle.
I’m a little nervous about posting this, as I remember the emotions I felt when I took that first before photo. I was so disgusted with myself that I didn’t look at that particular photo until today, when I could compare it to something I’m mighty proud of. I am, I am so proud of myself! I’m proud that I kept pushing myself, that I never gave up and that I’ve been able to reach this point today, where I can say:
I love my body, I love myself, I love my life.
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The point. The jump. Rachel McAdams. The best kiss in the history of kisses.
