When will I shine? When will it be my moment?
I feel like I’m always in the background, overshadowed because I’m not pretty enough or smart enough, or doing something great.
Can someone just appreciate me for being me?
Can someone please look past my weight and tough girl attitude and see me?
A child of divorce, abuse, addiction, sexual assault, loneliness. A child of lost faith and pessimism.
Am I really as lost as I think I am?

All I can think is that if I lose this weight things will get better. So many people tell me I’m wrong, that being skinny doesn’t solve your problems.
Well it may not solve my problems, but it’ll stop complicating them. Atleast when I’m skinny and single I’ll know it’s because I’m a horrible person with no personality and not just cause I’m fat. Or that my parents aren’t just ashamed of me cause I’m fat, they really just don’t wanna tell people about me.

God, I don’t even know where I’m going with this.